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  A London Dolls Story

  by

  JoAnne Kenrick

  What Lola Wants

  London Dolls book one

  Pre-edits: Kate Richards of Wizards in Publishing

  Edits: Chelle Olson of Literally Addicted to Detail

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  Copyright © 2015 by JoAnne Kenrick

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  Disclaimer: This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the products of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locations or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

  Table of Contents

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

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  What Lola Wants

  When the spotlight fades, anything is possible…

  Louisa “Lola” Lone flees The Royal Ballet and ends her days as arm-candy to a cheating choreographer. Back in London, she plans to recreate herself and find the happiness success never brought her. But she hasn’t seen her best friend’s brother, the blond surfer who still holds her heart, in years, and worries he may resent her for leaving him for fame and fortune.

  Dennis Bay sucks at relationships. Why? Because he can’t get over Lola. A decade after leaving without a glance back, she’s returned and needs support. He wants to pretend she’s just his baby sister’s friend, leave the city, and surf out his emotions on the biggest waves he can find, ultimately forgetting about her. But he can’t deny the frenzy of love and lust the sexy dancer has him in.

  Spinning into the dazzling world of burlesque, Louisa hopes to rediscover her confidence and a path back to Dennis. But a stalker lurks in the shadows of her new life and threatens a second chance with her high school crush. Can history and desire overcome all that stands in the way of Dennis and Louisa’s happily ever after?

  Chapter One

  The train from Heathrow crawled to a halt and the exit doors opened.

  Louisa Lone rose from her seat, sucked in a breath, and pulled her wheeled suitcase onto the Marble Arch platform. The station hadn’t changed since she’d jumped aboard the fast ride to center stage ten years earlier: steel blue railings that had seen better days, stark white tiles, chatter echoing through the underground tunnels.

  Yet even with the bustle, an emptiness settled in her heart.

  She leaned on the railing, still chipped and rusty, and let out an unbidden sigh. This was the very spot where she’d parted with Jane, her best friend, for the first time since nursery school. And it’s where she’d dared to kiss Dennis Bay goodbye. Dennis. He was one regret she hoped to fix now that she was back in London.

  She maneuvered her bags up the several dozen steps leading to the street, and flinched at the one part of home she hadn’t missed while being on the road with The Royal Ballet; the stench of brine breezing in from the Thames, and sewage from the underground system.

  Hectic traffic rumbled over the tarmac road.

  A red double-decker bus squealed to a stop curbside, puffing exhaust fumes. The gritty smoke caught in her throat and teased up a cough. She sputtered and fanned the vapor away then took in an ad featuring a brunette spanning the side of the vehicle. The woman was done up like a wartime pin-up with a cheeky smirk and a dark beauty spot at the corner of one of her sparkling hazels framed with uber-thick lashes. The slogan read:

  The Doll House, home of the infamous London Dolls. With a wink and a tease, they are sure to please. Every hour is Happy Hour - £1 cocktails.

  Posters for several West End shows dressed billboards and store windows. She flitted her gaze along the street and made haste through the same route she used to take from The Royal Academy School of Dance with Jane, feeding on the feast of familiarities.

  She arrived at the corner building she’d once lived in. Swinging the heavy glass door open, she expected the lobby to be as she’d left it. But shabby and uncared for didn’t even begin to describe the entryway—yellowed walls, graffiti declarations of love and hate, chipped and grimy floor tiles. Mouth agape, she double-checked the number on the door. Yes, she had the right place.

  She squeezed into the lift. The doors closed and the elevator began its ascent. One. Why was it taking so long? Two. She needed her friend to say she’d be okay. Three. She pinched her nose to block out the stench of stale piss lingering in the tiny space. Glanced at the time. Five o’clock. Four. A ping sounded and the doors creaked open.

  She hauled her bruised life’s belongings across the hallway toward her old place.

  A glitter-coated pink sign adorned the door of flat forty-four, which meant her friend and old roomy, Jane, still lived there and glammed up the mundane.

  She pressed the cutesy doorbell she helped pick out when she and Jane had first moved in, then waited.

  It had only been four or so months since she’d last chit-chatted on the phone with Jane, but ten years had passed since they’d last rehearsed together. Last she’d heard, Jane was some big West End star now. Knowing this eased her guilt of being accepted to The Royal Ballet when Jane had been rejected.

  Louisa’s suitcase bulged with all the clothes she’d managed to squeeze into the battered old thing. The sight brought home her new reality. No performing for the unforeseeable future. She slumped. Voluntary sabbatical. Ha! Her ex had pushed her so far into a corner that she didn’t have a choice.

  She pressed the button again.

  Still no answer.

  “Jane?” She knocked on the hardwood.

  The door creaked open a sliver.

  “Hello?” Louisa peeked around the opening, her voice a notch higher than a whisper. “Anyone home?”

  She inched into her old place and peered around.

  Not a stick of furniture remained in a room distinguished by peeling pink wallpaper and faded carpet. No welcoming aromas of coffee and sweet vanilla butter cream from her friend’s cake and caffeine addiction. Just the bitter lemon and pine scent of cleaning products lingered.

  Nothing resembled the bright flat she’d once shared with Jane.

  The door to the kitchen where she’d burned countless meals and brewed much coffee creaked open a little, and the sounds of a man engaged in a heated discussion echoed. He blasted complaints about spoiled fruitcake and returned invites.

  Seemed her friend no longer lived here, but someone getting hitched did. The voice, gruff like Jane’s surfer brother, Dennis, made her pause. She dismissed the idea when the man said, “Poppycock.” Dennis wouldn’t be caught dead saying such a thing. Cock, yes
. But with a poppy? Definitely not.

  She pivoted into the hall and closed the door behind her.

  Now what?

  Time to head to a hotel, that’s what, and phone Jane to let her know she was back in town and needed hugs.

  “You rang, and rang…and rang?” The door flung open. She staggered back and turned. Dennis Bay loomed over her. Blond, unruly hair, perfect tan, and bright blues. He was still the vision of a sun-kissed surfer straight from Devonshire’s wild waves, except he wore “adult” clothes now, instead of the long shorts and tee she remembered him in.

  Smoking hot.

  Her breath caught for the longest second before she was able to ask, “What happened to you?”

  “Lola?” He curled his tongue as he over-pronounced the Ls in her name. “It can’t be.”

  No one ever called her Lola, no one except him. And no one matched the sensual way he rolled his Ls that cut right through to her insides and made her heart flutter.

  Oh, my.

  Dennis Bay. Jane’s older brother and Louisa’s long-time crush. One she thought she was over. Apparently, not so much.

  She squealed and wrapped her arms around his neck, reveling in his musky scent with hints of amber. Oh so masculine and delicious, reminding her of the last time they’d embraced. How foolish she’d been to put her career first. How bittersweet to have kissed him goodbye, only to realize how deep her love and lust for him ran.

  She’d missed him more than she realized. Or perhaps she’d missed the sense of safety his presence offered?

  “Look at you, all grown up,” she said with a smile. “Thirty suits you.”

  “Yes, that’s me, an adult and teaching A-Level mathematics at the local college. Didn’t expect that, did you?”

  “I sure as hell didn’t, not from the beach-bum I remember you being.”

  Her mind drifted to the sweeter side of their last encounter. His peppermint breath as he’d explored her mouth. How she’d shivered when he’d pressed his hulking chest against hers and tugged at her ponytail. He’d been all that existed in that moment.

  He cleared his throat and inched back, the sudden space between them sending a chill through her. She’d been so wrapped up in her excitement; she hadn’t noticed he didn’t seem as pleased as she about the reunion. “Jane’s not here.”

  “So I gathered. Where is she?”

  “Out.” He kept his gaze low.

  Perhaps he didn’t remember their kiss or how much heat had sizzled between them. She swallowed hard and debated telling him about Al, but Dennis had a habit of wanting to take care of everything. The last thing she needed was for him to go vigilante on an ex who had the power to end her career. For good. “Please, can I grab a glass of water or something?”

  “Since you asked so nicely,” he glanced up and frowned, his aqua eyes narrowing, “there are paper cups by the sink. But make it quick. I was on my way out.”

  He stepped aside, and she clapped sight of the space again.

  A lump caught in her throat. “Weird seeing the place so empty.”

  “Sis moved out last weekend. I’m doing the last check then posting the keys through the letter box when I’m done.”

  Louisa rushed to the sink and filled a cup with tap water. “Bet she had a wild moving-out party, judging by the mess.”

  “No party.” He slipped his phone into his pants pocket.”

  She sipped the cool liquid. “So, what? A pack of animals lived here?”

  “Dear, Lola.” He pointed across the dingy space, a slight curve rounding his mouth. “Look around. It’s the same as always.”

  “Nope, the place is a dive. Even the lift smells like tramp central. Sure, our housing budget sucked for central London. It was never this bad, though.”

  “You must loan me those rose-tints one day. Anyway, chop, chop. You’ve finished your drink yet you’re still here, what is it you want?”

  “Jane, of course.” It had been her intention to find her all along, but Dennis and his homecoming hug had swayed her focus. Above all, it had ignited the passion simmering in her gut and growing with every second spent in his presence. But the earlier phone call she’d overheard about wedding cake suggested he was taken. Her return home was too late. Shame it took an unrelenting ex and a forced break to get her mind off the next performance and back onto her life.

  “As you can see, she’s not here.” Fussing with thick hair flopping over his blues, he flitted his gaze over her shoulder as if she were Miss Invisible.

  “Well, where is she? I’ve a lot to catch her up on. Oh, to collapse with a cuppa and the latest edition of Variety. Cakes will be involved no doubt, and a gossip session on the celebrity news.”

  “Yes, cakes and gossip. I remember that’s all you two ever did together. And dance, of course.” A groan vibrated from him. “You’ll need the Tottenham Court Road Station stop.”

  “I’m exhausted, what’s the quickest way there? Better still, do you have the number for a taxi?”

  “Fine.” He sighed and spun a set of keys on his index finger.

  “What?”

  “I’ll take you to your leader.”

  “Who?”

  “Jane, of course,” he sighed and sauntered to the hallway. “To get you out from under my feet.”

  She followed him. “Ouch. It’s nice to see you, too, Dennis.”

  “What did you expect?” He turned his back to her, locked the door, and grabbed the glitter sign. “For me to sweep you up and spin you as if in a wildly romantic love affair? Wake up and smell reality, Lola. You hurt me.”

  Her heart panged.

  “I’m,” she reached toward his arm, “I’m so sorry.”

  He pivoted to face her and shook his head, squashing any slither of hope that he might still love her. “I spent all those years looking after you as my baby sister’s best friend, and you threw me for a loop when you snogged me. I had no idea how electric a kiss could be. ” He exhaled and glanced at his feet. “It hurts to think you didn’t even look back, never once wrote me a letter or sent me a text. Nothing. And since you never forwarded an address, all I could do was ask Jane to give you a nudge to call me. But you never did.”

  “Dennis, I’m sorry. I thought about calling you. Really, I did. And I wrote you a ton of letters.”

  He strode to the lift across the hallway and hit the button to go down. “I never got any.”

  “I never sent them,” she replied and scurried to his side.

  “No, I shouldn’t imagine The Great Alfonso would’ve liked that. How long have you been with Al now?”

  She huffed then said under her breath, “Too long.”

  He tightened his lips into a thin line and paused for a moment. “So, any talk of wedding bells for you two?”

  “I’d rather not discuss him if that’s okay.”

  “Why?”

  “I don’t even know where to start.”

  “Anywhere, start anywhere. Start when you left to be this big star with the ‘best choreographer in the whole wide world’ and didn’t give me a second thought.”

  “I don’t know.”

  He hit the down button again then crossed his arms and glowered.

  “Really, I don’t know how to make sense of my stupidity. I got stars in my eyes, and reality clouded for a while. I don’t even know what compelled me to turn my cheek in our farewell embrace, Dennis. But I did, and you met my lips with yours.”

  “So kissing me was stupid? A mistake?”

  “No, no. I’m not saying that. The way I left, that was stupid.” She dropped her gaze. “I’m stupid.”

  Nudging her chin with this thumb, he whispered, “Don’t say that.”

  “But I was. I truly believed my dreams for dance were bigger than any happy ending a man could’ve given me, that you could have given me.”

  “No man can give you a happy ending, Lola. You need to make that on your own steam.” His stare darkened. “But I could have been there for you, supported you…
loved you.”

  Her legs turned to mush, and she reached for his shoulders for support but stopped herself mid-grab. He was taken. She had to move on.

  All she had now, besides a jealous ex and the one that got away, was a sinking dance career. Fun times. Not. While love letters and yellow roses were his weapons of choice, the idea of Al stalking her gave her the shivers.

  She painted on a smile and said, “I’m glad you’re happy. You are happy, aren’t you?”

  “Yes,” he said. But his frown said no.

  Chapter Two

  Sitting opposite him on the train, she flicked her toffee-colored hair behind her perfect little ears with lobes meant for nibbling.

  She pulled a pack of gum from the pocket of her tailored coat and offered him some.

  He shook his head. “No, thanks.”

  Typical Lola. While she hadn’t changed—still hid behind buckets of self-assurance—he certainly had. No longer the guy who used his days riding waves to ignore the world. Nope. Not anymore. He knew what he wanted. And that didn’t involve city-crazy, or complications of the heart.

  She dipped her gaze and shoved the packet away.

  Then quiet.

  She glanced at him, her gaze distant. Something bothered her, but he daren’t ask what it was and risk getting involved.

  Pretending to have no interest in her, he directed his attention out the window into the blackness of the underground tunnel the vessel raced through and tapped his digits over the plaque he’d grabbed for his sister. The reflection of a bickering family in the section across from where he sat drew his attention for a short while.

  Sneaking a peek at Lola proved irresistible, though, and nagged at him until he gave in.

  She caught his gaze in hers, smiled, and mouthed, “You okay?”

  Far from okay, but damned if he was going to let her know.

  “Fine,” he replied.

  His earlier “thanks for breaking my heart but I’m over you” confession had rolled off his tongue too easily. Such a reprieve seemed so far away.